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The Fighting Man

The Fighting ManSeries: The Fighting Man (TFM)

My heart is laden with disappointment. It has been for some time because I see so much fighting running rampant in this world. As a result, God laid this topic heavily on my heart. And because He is God and such a good Mentor, He graciously threw situation after situation my way in order to bring the point home even more solidly. But with each situation, He showed me the answer. He is so Faithful!

Following is a list of articles that He has directed me to write. I want to make sure that you know that I am just the pen – He is the Author. The solutions applied came from Him, I am just the messenger. I am nothing, He is Everything and He is my Best Friend. Without Him I can do nothing.

John 15:5 Amplified I am the Vine; you are the branches. Whoever lives in Me and I in him bears much (abundant) fruit. However, apart from Me [cut off from vital union with Me] you can do nothing.

So, without further ado, we begin…

A Drawing of the Fighting Man

The Fighting Man (Part 1)

This is the first in a series of articles on a subject that God has burned deeply into my heart.

What does The Fighting Man look like? I’ve drawn him out for you, or rather I’ve explained it and Pete (The Brilliant One) drew it for me. Look at it here!

The State of our Hearts

The Fighting Man (Part 2)

When we are born, we have pure hearts. Hearts unencumbered by pain, disappointment, abuses, humiliations, etc. As circumstances occur in our lives, hurts are deposited like little black marks on our hearts. What does this heart look like? And what are the behaviors that identify the owner of this heart?

The State of my Heart (or How I Became The Fighting wo*Man*)

The Fighting Man (Part 3)

For most of my adult life, I had an extreme hate in my heart. That hate was mostly directed towards all men, but it spilled out into a lot of my other relationships. I wore everything The Fighting Man sported. It wasn’t always that way.

A New Identity

The Fighting Man (Part 4)

As described in the previous article, The State of my Heart , I had developed a very strong hate for myself from all the choices, circumstances, and thought processes that had taken place during my lifetime. I needed a new identity and changing my name from Kathy to Kathryn to Kat, as I marked each time I tried to be a better person, wasn’t doing much for me. About ten years ago, I found the Secret Ingredient, the first step to eliminating TFM, that helped me get that sense of self-worth and true identity I had been searching for all my life . It was a long process, not easy, but worth every moment of it. Read More…

Do You Really Love Even Me?

The Fighting Man (Part 5)

I parked the car in the garage. It was dusk; that half light, half dark, surreal time of day where nothing seems quite what it is. I turned off the engine and checked the side view mirror. I don’t know what prompted me to make that move, but I did, and something caught my eye. Read the rest of this story…

The Healing Touch

The Fighting Man (Part 6)

I was broken, but God was ready to perform the first Big Miracle in my life. He is real, and He gets very personal as He reveals Himself to me and shows me where He’s been all of my life. He shows Himself Super Naturally.

A Trust Issue

The Fighting Man (Part 7)

I woke up Wednesday morning at 4:00 AM and did something I never do. I purposely touched my chest and under my fingertips I felt a lump. My heart jumped – my eyes jerked open and I was, of a sudden, wide awake. A sick, knowing realization overtook me; over 50 and a lump in my left breast.  This was not good.

And Now I Must Forgive

The Fighting Man (Part 8)

Unforgiveness had spoiled my view of everything in my life, and it was reflected in the way I reacted to people and situations. Only one way could free me of these chains. But I needed help…

Old Yeller

The Fighting Man (Part 9)

Not the dog… Us! Do we yell? What is the effect of yelling or shouting in anger? Does it accomplish anything? Are we easily irritated? Do we get angry a little too often?

Let’s take a look at it.

Explosive anger does accomplish some things. Supposedly it releases the pressure that has mounted up in you for some infraction committed. But in actuality, once you get going it seems to propel the emotion further until you are angrier than when you first started. It also helps your blood pressure to increase, which might not be a healthy physical reaction. The other thing it accomplishes is the closing of a door. And I don’t mean the slamming of a door. What door? Join me for the journey into anger…